14/9/06

// feeling :: Tired
// prayer for :: Tmr's Science Practical

Its boring staying at home for the whole day. I think my mind went dead.

I'm thinking of which ministry to choose-! God, help me -.-

I'm down to three. Its either:
1) Bookstore
2) Children's Church
3) Usher

I need to decide by tomorrow but when I asked my mom which one she thinks I should join, she said I shouldn't join any. *throb*throb* I'm caught in between.

I want to join; I want to do something more for the Church. But the timing . . . is couldn't've been more wrong. Signing up in the middle of my prelims? Not something that's recommended. I'll see how..For now..I'm just going to pray about it. I believe the right doors will open for me at the right time.

During the exam period, I kind of noticed that I have a lot of rough edges I need to smooth out. I've been "patiently" [some people would say "yeah right"] waiting to meet my future ahem ahem. Lolz. Have been having weird dreams about it lately but its kind of hard to distinguish which is meant to confuse me and which is meant to give me hope.

When I woke up, I remembered the verse that many people have repeated to me: "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11.

I love this verse a lot. My parents had given it to me in separate occasions, and my teachers and mentors have used it once or twice too. I am embarrassed to admit this but during this period of time I've spent too much time looking out for anyone potential, and not focusing on how the Lord has blessed me so far.

He has His own timing. His will, and not mine, be done.

Maybe its just hard with all the reminders all around me. Everywhere I go, there're bound to be couples. 3 more months till I'm 18 ... Then I'll be in Ministry, I'll be in Poly. I wont have that much time to think about that then. Single life is good. Yeah...